I’m in good company. Best-selling authors also suffer with doubts in regard to their stories, wondering if what they are doing matters to anyone else and if readers will like their stories. I just read an article in an old Writer’s Digest magazine (I have magazines stashed all over the house) about Harlan Coben. He has doubts, too. It’s interesting that I found this article a few days after reading my first Coben book, Play Dead. I am a new fan, late to the game, if you will. So many great books, so little time.
These doubts include wondering if all this time I spend working on my books is worth it. Will they ever get read? Will I have any readers outside my family? Will anyone care about my characters like I do? Will they laugh or cry while reading my books?
But I enjoy the writing life so much. Even with the doubts, I wouldn’t trade this gig for anything, despite the paltry pay (for articles and book reviews, not novels—yet!). I don’t really want to make a lot of money, I would just be happy with readers buying my books because they enjoy the satisfaction of reading a good story. Some money would be great, but my goals are not to hit the best seller list, or make a huge advance.
I love thinking up characters and throwing things at them they don’t like. Funny, sounds like real life, doesn’t it? Anyway, creating up plots, settings, and moving your characters around like a puppeteer moves his puppets is great fun.
I think it’s important for a person to do what he or she likes. And I enjoy writing novels.
Doubts assail many authors and it’s good to know I’m in good company.